Is it wrong to have a wonderful boyfriend who treats you like a queen...but still wonder if other guys think you're hot?  I dunno.  I constantly wonder about that.  I want to be seen as attractive.  I know I have a great guy but I can't help but be curious.  It probably stems from the fact that I've never been in a relationship that's lasted this long, and also because my friend Bridgette constantly gets hit on and asked out in front of me.  She's more outgoing and probably prettier than I am, so I understand, I guess.  Even when we were single, guys would gravitate toward her and not me because I'm quiet.  It makes my self esteem go crazy.  I just...ugh.  I wish I knew what it was like to be wanted 24/7.  Every guy I can think of who's my friend has wanted to date her at some point.  Every one.  Even Ray.  I don't get it.  

I'm weird.  I guess I'm a sucker for reassurance.

Work was fun tonight.  I got a free beer thanks to my cute coworker who  was bartending, and Ray bought me the drink special, a shot called a mangina HAHA.  Vodka, Malibu, pineapple and cranberry juice.  Yeah drinkin' on the job.

I got recommended to possibly fill a position at an office where a ton of people from the Monkey Pub work.  Haha.  No idea how I got recommended, but hey.  It's M-F 8-noon.  Then I'd go to school 5-9 I think, and work at the theater on weekends.  Hi no life!  Apparently I'll be interviewed sometime next week.  I'm getting tired of interviews.